Alright everybody, Damn I fucked up, heres the scoop. I partied a bit too hardy while on vacation. I didn't show up for work, didn't even call for almost a few days apparently. They had to call me and when they did it was bad of course, I was all kinds of messed up. Apparently a short conversation happened where I essentially said "You trying to fuck with me?" followed by "I quit!". In the heat of the moment we can do some crazy things. I talked to my label today,they told me about what happened, they asked me to take some time off, stay out of the spotlight, and clear up some personal issues. They said they'd call when I'm good to get back into the studio and make magic again. What ever that means. They also showed me a video of an interview I did when I was royally fucked up. I was spitting and slurring, vision was blurrin, I said some things of which I'm not certain, but all I know now is I'm feelin the hurtin'. Its playing all over TMZ, ET, Access Hollywood, even a couple news channels graced their show with my inebriated presence. Fuck it.
I know I visited my old friend Byron, But we call him Baron Byron, because hes always bearing some goodies, and hes always royally fucked up. He used to be one of my best friends from home, but he took me down a path which I can't follow, and this is exactly the fuck why. Old habits die hard
Its hard to be good, and easy to do evil
And I aint really in to meetin' wit new people
Its hard to be good, and easy to do evil
Now im on my knees, used to soarin' like an eagle
Whos knows if ill get my job back, I don't have an label perks, all I got is my car and my apartment and my piano until who knows when. I used to be livin the dream, but now I'm no more than a seam holding my life together. All because I wanted to get a little bit crazy. I still have to give him a call and see what he says.
My Family is good, I talked to Moms, shes said shes glad I'm ok, she knows better than anyone the sticky situations I tend to get myself into. And she just prays I'll be ok. She said, "This aint no party, This is life! Now im all for some fun baby, But your a star, you found your place, and you need to hold it up there. I know you been runnin around with Byron again and look what you dun' done! Pull it together baby, and get back to doin what you love" She said I can come to her house if I want, maybe eventually I will. Still too much on my plate. I gotta contact my boy Jessie at the studio, I know hes gonna be so mad at me, but through think and thin we've been homies. Thats it for now, still piecing together some of the puzzle but ill keep you guys posted. Keep the love flowing everyone because I'm not in the studio doesn't mean I'm not making music. To my family, friends, and fans, I'm truly sorry. With the bad comes the good though, and I can promise you some good in the near future.
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